Man... I was so ready for this... I listened to cheerful songs, act up, smiled, laughed, made myself happy.... just for this... but now that I actually Know what is going on... I can't handle my pain. I. Just. Can't.
Sometimes... I just wonder. What would my life have been if I wasn't a Christian, if my beliefs were different, if I was just a regular teenager, thinking and acting the same way, would I be smiling?
Why do people change? Why.... why.... When I am still the same, why do others change...
